What Is True Confidence?

And why we love and hate narcissisits.

When we are scared, of power hierarchies for example, we make ourselves small.

Upon anyone with any the confidence, capability, or status that we desire, we confer intelligence, goodness, strength, and we ally ourself with them to borrow their power.

We defer to them, compliment, befriend, praise, and otherwise abase ourselves in the hope and expectation that they will save us from our own fears.

We heap expectation upon them, and put them on a pedestal.

If and when it becomes clear they might not take all our pain away or relieve us of all our fears - we dethrone them.

Not only do we stop deferring to them, but we are indignant of their betrayal and the trick they played upon us.

Without realising we cannibalised them, seeking their confidence to fill our insecurity.

There is a lot of ´buzz’ these days about narcissists, who they are, and how to pick them.

How about the need to outsource our power in the first place ?

And how does our relationship to God reflect this cannibalisation?

Do we dethrone God when all our desires are not satisfied despite our devotion?

If God has a human face, God would look like Jesus of Nazareth.

Jesus took all the hatred of the ones doing their best to please God, the religious law abusers, trying to assuage their fears of being human.

He showed back sacrificial love despite their anger and violence.

Most importantly he showed what human dignity and power is - not someone who needs to climb hierarchy for power and acceptance - nor someone who needs to oppress others or demand allegiance to prove their might.

God is most present when the smallest among creation love and serve each other humbly, defying hierarchical structures with their radical dignity.